Tuesday, October 8, 2013
How Moving Trucks Make Me Feel
We live in an Army town so we see moving trucks on our street all the time. This is a temporary stop, and not many families are here for too long. My husband and I like to take evening walks around the neighborhood and when we spy a moving truck, he looks at me and says, "That will be us in a few months."
Seeing those moving trucks makes me feel a whole lot of things. Here are just a few.
I feel total joy about our future and calm about our slowly shaping plans.
I wonder about the new home we will move into, and I envision the rooms, and the people moving between them.
I feel thankful for the man by my side because I've moved to him and he's moved to me but we've never moved anywhere together, and this is a blessing we've been waiting on for years.
I feel a little sorry for myself (to be quite frank) because our time here was so much longer than we expected, and then I make myself snap out of it because the difficulties of the past year or so will make our new lives in a new state that much sweeter.
I daydream for a minute about living in a place where I can walk to get a cup of coffee or to a park, a place that has snow and lots of culture.
I imagine where our neighbors might be moving to, and hope that they are as filled with excitement and anticipation and happiness as I know I will be when that truck is parked in front of our house.
I can't share where we will move to just yet, and to be honest, we are only about 90% sure ourselves. Things are becoming less complicated all the time but there is still a lot to be sorted out and important news that we're waiting on. And as for when, we don't know that either. (But sooner rather than later, is what we're thinking!)
But these unknowns are nothing compared to the big long unknown that lasted from May 2012 to August 2013. I know what uncertainty is and what it feels like, and this time of anticipation is nothing compared to that. I think God sometimes pushes us a little bit, makes us uncomfortable and challenges us and puts us in predicaments we wouldn't have chosen ourselves, all so that we will learn to rely on Him. And so that we have new gratitude for the times that feel good and right, rich and filled to the brim with living.